Limbo

I don't know what to think. Im hating how i feel.  You pick my heart up in the nick of time to save me, but then toss it back in the dirt.  I love you, but thats not enough it seems.  I just look back on the dreams i had of our kids swinging, and me singing and i run my fingers through your hair.  but the way you treat me isnt fair. why did you take me, to keep me? or to break me? Your words and actions betray you because they aren't one in the same, and who's to blame,  I can't see straight anymore cuz my feelings are all wrapped up in my mind, my concept of time has failed me. I don't know how to feel loved anymore. I don't know what its like not to worry that today might be the last you have with the one you love.  How am i supposed to get my life on track when i can't even get my heart in check.  You raise me up and then drop me, help me rise again and then prop me, on a broken promise.  You promised to never hurt me, if you want to leave just do it, don't string it out.  Be honest with me, i promise I won't shout, ill accept it and walk away quietly...but these scenarios arent working...im still hurting, and thats what u tried to avoid.  The easiest way to make amends is to bend and show me you mean it, genuine emotion love, its been a while since ive seen it. go out of your way for me and play for me, the sweet song of compassion.  I am rolling in uncertainty and its a prison.  not sure what your plan is, but im wishin, that you will make up your mind and hold me close like u did at first, or cut me loose. cuz this noose is tightening, and i am scarred from fighting...tired of trying to be loved by you, its that simple...it was that simple...love me...do you know what love is, i dont think you do...prove to me that the words you say is true...write me a letter or a poem or two..tell me what you think love is....and what i mean to you....cuz my heart is fading...and i am debating...on how long i should keep waiting..